because suddenly, I'm hearing a lot about babies.
I've barely gotten used to the whole married thang. Being married is still a huge novelty for me... the fact that I've dedicated an entire blog to the whole process should be testament to how novel the idea is. To me. I was dancing down the steps to my front door this evening, still goofy after the splendid Singapore-style rain that came over Canberra (warm rain, torrential, and still 27 degrees!) when I caught myself in midstep, almost tripping over.
I'm MARRIED! I'M married! Whoooooaaaaaaa...
It's coming 11 months now, and still I catch my breath sometimes because it's such an awesome concept.
But apparently, my news is quite passé because people I know who have barely started as well, are now charging down Motherhood Lane as if having a whole other person growing inside of you is the most natural thing in the world. My neighbour's gone and given birth and will be moving to Queensland. Vivien, ex-nemesis-whatever, is expecting her first anytime now, barely a year after she got married. Charles is a FATHER. 'Nough said. (Although to be fair, he had a 2.5 year gap.) And now Irwin.
Irwin whom I had the hugest crush on when I was 15 years old, is going to be a dada.
Irwin, who still looks 21. Is going to be a father.
I'm overjoyed for him - and a tad frustrated I don't have his latest mobile number - but a part of me is just flabberghasted, and in total awe.
I know married people have babies. I know growing a family is part of the deal for most people. I know our new house has enough rooms for 2 children, with space enough for my mother still. I know that the entire time we were sussing out houses, my brain was running through practical stuff like
staircases = not that great for clumsy kids
tiled flooring = ice block of a crawling baby in Canberra winters
tiled flooring = good for wiping up drool, though
and Tony was thinking
courtyard = no grass to mow
courtyard = no grass for son to mow
courtyard = yay, no grass
But seriously, growing a human being is going to be a totally different ballgame. And having a third person in our marriage - no matter how nice, as my mother had put it - is going to change things majorly.
And I'm just not quite ready to share him yet.